Happier than a duck with bread: Old, Zara (similar style). Blue jean jacket: Next Old (Similar), Jenna Jeans New Look, Trainers Old, Nike (similar), Handbag: Anthropologie Old (similar), (Also similar is the Chloe Faye bag+).
I have a lot to say. I have a lot to blog about in fact, I have a back log of unwritten things, items and looks unphotographed and it goes back years, it goes back to 2015. A seemingly happy year, we bought a house and it all went downhill, I got sloppy, lazy and ate way too much and here we are at the crux at the matter.
A sugar addict, ready to cut the cord because it’s already gotten between me and you. Me and therealjlow because I don’t want to put my face in front of the camera anymore.
There is more to this story of course, there always is, but for today I want to talk about positive vibes, about a positive body image and being brave and strong enough to go through the fire to get what I want, my life back.
Blogging 24/7 like I used to is also not the answer, there is a careful balance in between, but I’ve known this year especially is that I need to get myself to like me again. I’ve sorted out the career quarter life crisis, the general quarter life crisis, I’m at the other side now and the only thing holding me back is the mess that year(s) left behind. Sugar addiction.
Today greets the first day of no more sugar for a seven days (to start). As a PCOS suffer my body isn’t good with insulin, and it’s a scary fact that 40% of those with PCOS get Type 2 diabetes because of our hormone insanity so it’s logical to start where the real problem is and that is with sugar.
In the beginning of this year I finally felt in a strong enough position to start thinking about my diet, my health and start making changes. It started with the diet, after all I was already going to the gym pretty much every other day or at least weekly. We kicked off with Joe Wicks and still are, although I’m not entirely convinced that it’ll be the heavy hitter I need to make a stark difference, but my snacking was never truly controlled. It only got worse after I slid my way into a&e and a sling again. Now, we are back on track with the diet, this next week start’s a new stage, alongside a new two month gym work out plan with both dedicated cardio and weight days in the gym, tied up with no more snacking and sugar I’m praying to see a difference.
See there is something so daring about sharing your outfits on the internet. I like to dress unusually by preference, but to do so requires a confidence which I am lacking at the moment and that is not in my style but in my body. I now, feel strong mentally and so now I need my body to reflect that same feeling.
I’m not entirely convinced with my new work out yet, I want to do the cool work outs, I want to try out crossfit and be that girl who can do the monkey bars past age ten, but I know the journey isn’t always that simple. I can’t be a Bella twin straight out of the gate and I know this is a journey and it’s one I need to take now. So I’m finally sharing something again, something new to kick it all off and be honest, perhaps you can keep me accountable too and let’s see where we all end up.
Cheer’s to those good vibrations!