There is probably a far more inventive title than this one but I think this pretty much sums up 2017 as nicely as possible. It’s been a year where I feel like I’m standing at the cusp of the new year with the same resolutions but an entirely different back story.
This was the very first year where we made resolutions. There was nothing scary bar a little self renovation. We wanted to switch jobs, change our lives a little, find better balance, chase our dreams like we didn’t feel like we could before. We also wanted to chase those feelings we had after university again, where the whole world felt like a possibility again.
“And we run, and we run, and we run, Until we break through, If I get high enough, If I get high enough, will I see you again?” – If I get high, Nothing but Thieves
To make this post a little different rather than blog posts photos I thought I would include some of the music that I was in love with during the year, not necessarily by release date because some are older than 2017 but by what stood out to me at different times.
A recent Instagram by Gary Vee summed early 2017 Jess up nicely, “You’re not stuck, you’re just inexperienced.” Jess in early 2017, was a hella stuck. I felt, between you and me, like a hamster stuck on a wheel that I had no idea how I got into let alone how to get out.
At the beginning of this year I wouldn’t think that I would understand this as much as I do now. However, with time and some hard core knowledge building this year I got it. This feeling of helplessness I think we all have sometimes is easily broken when you just accept that sometimes the only way out is through and sometimes that just takes hard work.
In May I left my safety blanket of London finally and fully immersed myself into the south east and then summer came….
Leaving one job where you are comfortable and are used to the status quo is something which honestly after four years now is a big deal. The average person employed will usually only stick at one role for two years at most and to stick at it for longer and then go in a completely direction? It was like plunging myself into the deep end of the swimming pool.
I’m sure we can all agree that 2016 was a toughie, the political turmoil was the beginning of a headache that just wouldn’t quit. Although that didn’t get better in 2017, I feel that the year eventually wrapped up nicely. In my mind this year wasn’t an easy year. 2016 was a fearful year and it trapped me, but 2017 was a tough upward battle that eventually led me to the top of a hill. It was hard, it was unwanted in many respects but as 2018 approaches it was a needed year. Tough lessons to lead the way for more light.
“So if you want lights in your life that’s fine, just let me play lead in mine…” – Montaigne, A cinematic plea for an end
2017 ultimately has been in light of everything, a good year. Its been a great growth year and you know what? I had actually missed having a tough growth years, I’d spent I realise far too long coasting and telling myself off for not progressing when ultimately the only way to progress is to do. To come back to the Gary Vee quote above you can only get yourself out of fear and the like by doing, by learning, by actually putting a foot forward.
“When I could only see blue, You taught me to swim, And when you didn’t have to, You took me in…” – Sinead Harnett, Unconditional
Someone who has been ever constant in my life of course is Josh. I honestly don’t know where these years keep running to but he has been such a steady and incredible force. I hope that he too has felt this to be a good year too, things have only gone up for him at work and we are both excited that the next year will be even better!
I think for now of course I probably shouldn’t keep rambling, although I have about a million more songs I want to share! I’m really hoping that I will be able to pop in here more and be better on the blog and share this years resolutions!
In honesty they are not all too different, but with less of a blurry headed feeling than I had last year I for once in ages feel as though I have the energy and go on a go and get ’em attack that I haven’t had in forever! So here is to the new and better year and to really make good on all my promises!
“Can you keep it together?” – Major System Error, Marmozets